I’m tired of being sick and tired, but it’s so hard trying to live just for today and not worry about the future.

I can only do what I can to make a difference and have got to learn how to let go of what I can’t. Worry will suck the life out of you, then you’re left with nothing, and that’s no good.

By wallowing in self-pity and misery, I’ve neglected the positives in my life and perhaps focusing on those will makes these hard times easier.

I am thankful that:

1. I have a strong marriage and a wonderful husband

2. We have two great kids

3. We have a strong support net of friends and extended family

4. We live in a beautiful part of the country

5. Hubs and I still have jobs

6. We have a home and cars

7. I have some of the best Internet pals

8. My family and I are physically healthy (for the most part.)

9. We have the best, and most loving furry pals

10. My parents and Hubs parents are still with us and healthy

11. I KNOW the answers are ‘out there,’ we’ve just not found them yet

12. Even if my worst fears materialize, we will survive it

I need to stop worrying about what is going to happen next week, next month or even next year. I have to focus on today and what is possible today.

It’s hard. It’s really hard to not worry, to not envision all the ‘what ifs.’ I can’t do anything about those, and it’s killing me. But the constant state of panic that I seem to be in isn’t working for me either.

I’m afraid that my trepidation, and my worry is making matters worse all around too. If I can project a sense of acceptance, a feeling that we can weather this storm whole, some of the anxiety spillage can be mopped up.

Deep breath. It WILL all work out.